Her Altered State

Her heart screamed inside her weak body
The fragile exigency of life had overcome her
Illusions of felicity blind her altered state
Seeking normalcy to replace this daze.
Trying to evade the questions
No one desires to have answered
Her life resembles a nova
The evanescence is no longer comprehensible
Struggling with the will to vanquish virtue
She continues to live her vapid life.

Dreaming

Dreams are a way to set one free
They can go anywhere
See all they can see
Living in a world of hope
Dreaming of a world with joy
Love and laughter they do employ.

My Prayer

Give me strength to live better today than I did yesterday.
Give me courage to stand for what is right.
Give me the freedom to choose my own path.
Give me hope for a better tomorrow.

Give me joy in this life and the next.
Give me love so that I can learn to love.
Give me warmth in times of cold.
Give me comfort in times of sorrow.

Give me respect for myself and others.
Give me faith in God and my Country.
Give me friends who will always be there.
Give me beauty in all things.

Give me forgiveness when I have done wrong.
Give me a family to love and care for.
Give me compassion for the less fortunate.
Give me the ability to see people for who they really are.

Give me knowledge, education and learning.
Give me patience to withstand all trials.
Give me the time to accomplish my goals.
I will not live in vain.

Autumn's Cycle

Leaves
Crunching, crackling under my feet
Falling, gliding with a rhythmic beat
Wind
Blowing, howling, whispering in the breeze
Coasting, sailing, caressing the trees
Coldness
Icy, wintry, frosty day
Chilling, freezing, longing to go away
Winter
Transforming, changing, waiting to extend -
The whiteness of our snowy friend.

Pops of Plum

Pops of Plum by cutestains featuring skinny leg jeans

At the End of the Tunnel

It's hard to see the finish line
At the start of a big race
It's hard to know if the path you've picked
Will be the right choice.
It's hard to have faith that things will work out
When everything stands in your way.
Just hold onto hope, and you will find
The light at the end of the tunnel.

What defines YOU?

So often people define themselves based on things that are more shallow in nature.  They base it on the clothes they wear, the car they drive, or their job.

In other cases people define themselves based on things that are unchangeable.  They base it on personal traits, such as eye color, as well as disabilities.

A few years ago I was suffering from infertility.  When you're struggling through something like that it's easy to use it to define yourself.  I was determined to not be defined by my infertility.  In fact, I rarely mentioned it to anyone.

What I found is that others used it to define me.

Everytime I was introduced to someone new, it seemed like I was always referred to as Infertile Katie (no one ever really called me that).  People seemed to focus so much on the fact that I wasn't able to get pregnant, that I began to feel like that was who I was.

So one day a I sat down and made a list of the things that define me.  I am so much more than my infertility.

I am -

• Creative
• A writer
• A friend
• A sister
• An aunt
• A wife
• A mother

Since the birth of my daughter 2 years ago, I've felt a little disconnected from who I was before she came into my life. Who am I exactly?  That is up to me.  No one else can define who I am for me.

Now go make your own list of who you are.  I guarantee that you will feel good about yourself because you will be focusing on the positives rather than the negatives.  Feel free to share your list!  I'd love to hear what defines you.